December 2011
1 post
a fork has appeared
4 years is a lot of time and commitment to anything, but time has come to part ways. We always knew that I wasnt going to be here for a career thing. New opportunities have risen and franklly I have never been in such a mix of emotions. One new road has appeared, a very prosporous road. It is not the one we have been working towards but it is a road none the less. Only few moments in my life has...
Dec 15th
October 2011
1 post
Leaving
People being stuck in a dead end job, for fear of not finding anything better. But with no risk comes no reward. And that’s when you must get off the train, making your own path. Never be satisfied with mundayne. EXCELL! It is easy to write this, maybe I should stop typing and start listening.
Oct 11th
September 2011
1 post
Peas in a Pod
Forever, a indescribable amount of time that theoretically has no end. With an amount of time that is soo vast, how is it that people throw this in without a second thought? An enternal search for never ending love and life.
Sep 13th
August 2011
1 post
The Question
We are not machines, we are not built for a specific purpose. We are not programed for anything but to be unique. It is mind blowing why soo many people feel the need to fit in and be accepted. Why?
Aug 29th
January 2010
1 post
All I got to say is “Where has 2010 been ALL my life!?”
Jan 8th
December 2009
3 posts
Dec 23rd
Dec 10th
Therapy
November was very theraputic. Vegas was good apparently made some calls to people they enjoyed it. I have just over all enjoyed it. I feel like im changing and the road seems to be leading to a nice place. Should be a good ride.
Dec 4th
November 2009
4 posts
She always makes me want to be a better man. ALWAYS.
Nov 25th
Last Ounce of Sanity
Have been told that I am a weird character, well I lie I have always been told I am rather weird. Well it is just in the nature of the beast. Having grown up mostly as an only child with very little social life outside of school, never really going out and playing with others and keeping to myself. This could explain a lot of my behavior. It took quite some time to figure out what the defining...
Nov 25th
beard progress
I decided to grow my version of a beard…so far I think we are on week 3 i think. missing week one but week one is just some stuble so no big deal. Starting to thicken out contemplating letting it go until i hit my birthday. But do I really want to look like Leonidas????? Dont know if thats a good idea!
Nov 18th
You can try to make it last forever, but if you make someone your everything and they leave your left with nothing. Think bout it before you get into it.
Nov 16th
October 2009
6 posts
Batteries not included...
So as the reconstruction process proceeds, I realized (or actually was made to realize) that I let my mind get in the way too much. I hesitate and once I decide to go for it the oppurtunity is gone. I am going to GO HARD in EVERY aspect of my life. I deserve better then what and where I am. Having suffered to much trying to please others. Its time to be greedy. Not going to rest. Time to put in...
Oct 27th
Oct 24th
Oct 19th
“A gem cannot be polished without friction, nor a man perfected without trials.” -unknown chinese proverb And as I read this I had a quick glance of my past. And it explains a lot of the person I have become.
Oct 14th
Nice and slow is the way to go. Let’s just not try to kick it ol’ school tend to knock myself out. HA
Oct 12th
Oct 1st
September 2009
8 posts
cupid inc.
Has outsourced his projects and I am apparently one of them. It is entertaining to have quite of different people attempt to play match-maker with me, “Hey go say ‘Hi’ to her!” or “Do you know that girl? No!? You Should.” Nothing wrong with these women, actually any other time I would probably attempt to chat them up, key word ATTEMPT. But the fact that I get...
Sep 23rd
Pretty sure the monarchical government days are...
mayralove: So why the fuck do girls act like they are princesses to be waited on. Bitch, if you want something get your ass up and get it yourself. Last time I checked you dont rule the world.  word!
Sep 22nd
1 note
continuation
So I was not going to continue my thoughts from last night. But the conclusion of today has put me in the state of mind of finishing my thoughts. So to put me in a nutshell would be inaccurate. My being is soo vast that a nutshell would exploded at the thought trying to contain me. I was told I needed to finish this, so as I’m typing I guess I’m agreeing with this person. I feel as I...
Sep 21st
There will never be another chico like TheOsko!
Sep 21st
knowing
So an issue has arose recently in a matter of me knowing more about people then people know about me. I can see that, I often keep my thoughts and emotions to myself. Main reason, I just don’t think people care. So I will break myself down for all of you right (meow). I use humor to hide every facet of my life (I.e. Financing, work, social life, love life…well the lack there of) So...
Sep 20th
Sep 19th
Shifting my priorities.
Sep 15th
Usher's hidden message???? Maybe!
“you make me wanna” “work it out” but “u dont have to call” because “u got it bad.” “Ill show you love” “Nice and slow”. But “can you handle it” “my way?” “can you help me?” And be a”Bad Girl” before “Bedtime” and I promise “I wont let it burn”...
Sep 8th
August 2009
2 posts
deconstructing the machine
Often have I found myself criticizing my family and the fact of how stubburn they are. “Oh I’m glad not!” and not ‘til recent events I am realizing its a ‘kettle calling the pot black’ scenario. So for one to become the best person they can be, they must first decontruct and isolate the the worst parts and strive to change these. And then rebuild. It is a...
Aug 25th
realization...and the beginning
So lately I have been adimently over my job, and have being dealing with it for far to long. Drinking has been the emergency exit to my “horrid” life. I know some people are unemployed blah blah blah. I get it, im in a “grass is always greener on the other side” mentality so leave me alone. I work out almost daily to the point that my testosterone levels are possibly higher...
Aug 22nd