4 years is a lot of time and commitment to anything, but time has come to part ways. We always knew that I wasnt going to be hear for a career thing. New opportunities have risen and franklly I have never been such a mix of emotions. One new road has appeared, a very prosporous road. It is not the one we have been working towards but it is a road none the less. Only few moments in my life has my heart beaten so hard and fast without any physical activities involved. Lets roll with it! Lets do this!
People being stuck in a dead end job, for fear of not finding anything better. But with no risk comes no reward. And that’s when you must get off the train, making your own path. Never be satisfied with mundayne. EXCELL!
It is easy to right this, maybe I should stop typing and start listening.
Forever, a indescribable amount of time that theoretically has no end. With an amount of time that is soo vast, how is it that people throw this in without a second thought? An enternal search for never ending love and life.
We are not machines, we are not built for a specific purpose. We are not programed for anything but to be unique. It is mind blowing why soo many people feel the need to fit in and be accepted.
Why?
All I got to say is “Where has 2010 been ALL my life!?”
November was very theraputic. Vegas was good apparently made some calls to people they enjoyed it. I have just over all enjoyed it. I feel like im changing and the road seems to be leading to a nice place. Should be a good ride.
She always makes me want to be a better man. ALWAYS.
Have been told that I am a weird character, well I lie I have always been told I am rather weird. Well it is just in the nature of the beast. Having grown up mostly as an only child with very little social life outside of school, never really going out and playing with others and keeping to myself. This could explain a lot of my behavior. It took quite some time to figure out what the defining moment of my self prison being shattered. It was the first time alcohol was really introduced in a social enviroment. I had one drink, two drinks, until eventually all inhibition was lost. The shyness seemed to disappear, and it felt amazing. I remember dancing, interacting with others, having the most fun in my life i had ever had. Slowly through out the years I have tried to just shed this prison I find myself in and just letting go. A lot of people say that sanity is what holds this civilized world together. But is that really true, one must have dreams that other may think that are traits of lunacy. Over hundred years the thought of flight was CRAZY now look at what we have. I say dump all these mental prisons that society places on us. And Just go for it, let the crazy out. Whats the worst that can happen, you have a good time along the way.
I decided to grow my version of a beard…so far I think we are on week 3 i think. missing week one but week one is just some stuble so no big deal. Starting to thicken out contemplating letting it go until i hit my birthday. But do I really want to look like Leonidas????? Dont know if thats a good idea!
You can try to make it last forever, but if you make someone your everything and they leave your left with nothing. Think bout it before you get into it.
So as the reconstruction process proceeds, I realized (or actually was made to realize) that I let my mind get in the way too much. I hesitate and once I decide to go for it the oppurtunity is gone. I am going to GO HARD in EVERY aspect of my life. I deserve better then what and where I am. Having suffered to much trying to please others. Its time to be greedy. Not going to rest. Time to put in work. If I want it I will get it. Plain and simple. Be ready. If you get in my way you will be cut off from communicating with me completely, I refuse to let people to get in my way of happiness.
